Peninsula (suite) - Lin Xue / 林 雪

Lin Xue / 林 雪




Peninsula (suite)

(Translated by Lin Shuang)


Driving by Stone River

Driving by Stone River ......Arrow sign punctures to 15 kilometers away
The sea abruptly appears. Look at her from the mid hill
Arc of clean, blue glass
Conveniently placed on the shoulders of the seawall and the small island

For the first time I lifted her up, in front of my eyes
of 5-year-old ......Still remember that screaming light
Suddenly sank into silence, the scenery was cool and profound
Like a French horn blowing into sea water
Our car rushed onto the viaduct
Look again she has become a candy wrapper, light and faded
A grayish candy wrapper trimmed with golden border
fluttering by my feet, waiting to roll up the sweat amber sunset
fallen on the seashore

My younger sister was also five when she picked it up
loving all candies
with hers two dental caries and ache
I and my younger brother wrapped a piece of soap
in a candy wrapper ......I still remember her standing there
Her small flushed face, her look of surprise and daze

Many years passed by…Life turned into a pair of blue lenses
I, unconfident, only look at those vast, tranquil things
And life also became a small piece of soap
Enveloped in a deceiving candy wrapper. How many people are carrying thorn on their back
Choking on fishbones in their throat, but still persist to praise




半 岛（组诗）


车过石河

车过石河……路牌上的箭头刺向十五公里外
大海蓦地出现。从半高坡地处望她
一块干净的弧形的蓝玻璃
被人随手放在防波堤和小岛的肩上

第一次举起她，放在眼前时
我五岁……犹记得那尖叫的光线
突然沉寂，景色如吹响海水的圆号
沁凉深沉。车子冲向高架桥
再看她已成轻盈浅淡的一枚糖纸

一枚夹杂着灰色、镶着金边的糖纸
飘在脚下，只等着把坠落在海边
那琥珀色甜蜜的夕阳卷起

妹妹捡起她时也是五岁
用她的两颗龋齿和疼痛
爱一切糖果。我和弟弟把一小块肥皂
包在糖纸里……犹记得她站在那里
涨红的小脸，和惊奇、错愕的表情

多少年过去……人生已成一副蓝玻璃镜片
我心虚的只看那广阔宁静的事物
而生活也变成一小块肥皂
包在骗人的糖纸里。多少人身背芒刺
喉噎鲠骨，仍执著歌颂




on the seawall

On the seawall, I face the sea and lower my head
I salute I pay tribute…The sea points out her fingers of waves
from that blue fiber, that profound loneliness
“Hush…..”, silence is like a void
Watching the sunset sinking into seawater
Watching the low tide burying a chunk of mud of childhood

On the seawall, a man turns on his car stereo
A singer is singing death and remorse in his husky voice
The man has dust in his hair, soil in his cuffs, wound in his eyes
Two worn rubbers on the bottom of his raised feet
“The body is a mortgage in this world”, On how many roads he has walked?
Over how many brilliant sins he has galloped?

Now, facing a singing cricket on the wind shield
He collapsed…like a rebirth
Deep inside the skull of the earth, a hidden plateau
hidden gold and essence

Night goes darker… Sky blurrs like this small town
I have seen countless. But still this is not the last one
The road covered with grass stalks leads to the ocean
Oh Sky! Your deep blue is
Indescribable, yet both love and blasphemy will never stop




防波堤上

在防波堤上，我面对大海颌首
致敬迎迓……而大海从那蓝色纤维中
那深邃的孤寂之上伸出波浪的手指
一声“嘘——”寂静恰似虚无
看夕阳在海水中舍身沉下
看退潮时的淤泥，埋住一块童年的泥巴

防波堤上，一个男人开着的汽车音响里
喑哑的歌手正唱着死亡和悔恨
那男人发里有灰，袖口有土，眼里有伤
他高擎的双脚底是两块被磨损的橡胶
“身躯抵押在尘世中”他走了多少路？
驰骋过多少光辉的罪孽？

现在，他对着车窗上一只唱着的蟋蟀
坍塌下来……像被重生一次
大地颅骨深处，藏着一座高原
藏着黄金和本质

夜色愈重……天色微茫如这个小镇
我已看过无数。但仍不是最后一个
撒满草秸的路一直通向海边
苍穹啊！你的深蓝
无法言谕，而爱和亵渎都将永不停止




Small Town

Small Town in Western Hills. Footpaths still paved with cement
A moron teenager, still chasing young girls who pass by
Window of small two-storey house with corner tower still hanging over sidewalk
Old neighbors still squatting by the Ash tree pit
There are still weddings and funerals in the morning, birth and death
But this still is not life

A street drank ether. Not fine wine
A street swallowed those hesitating tears
Sweat and bemazed. Because the passage of time
is decomposing the cement into powder
turning that young girl into grandmother
that window into void
those squatting neighbors into ashes

In this poem I pay homage I commemorate
While in the next one, you
will never find them again.




小 镇

西山小镇。还是水泥石板铺的步道
一个痴呆少年，还在追逐路过的少女
带角塔的二层小楼还有凸向人行道的窗子
槐树树坑边还蹲着老邻居
早上还有婚礼和出殡，有生有死
却还不是生活

一条街饮下了乙醚。不是美酒
一条街吞下那些欲说还休的眼泪
甜蜜恍惚。因为那流逝的时间
正把那水泥分解成粉末
把那少女变成祖母
把那窗子变成空洞
把那些蹲着的邻居变成骨灰

在这首诗中我致敬纪念
而在下一首诗，你
却再也找不到他们




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Lin Xue, in 1988, participated in the 8th Youth Poetry Conference. In 2006, she was awarded the National Top Ten Young Women Poets by the New Century Poetry Magazine. Her poetry collection The Earth Sunflower won the 4th Lu Xun Literature Prize. She has published poetry collections such as Pale Blue Star, Blue in Love, and Poems of Lin Xue；essays collection Deep Water Flame；poetry appreciation collection I Still Like Love. She won the Star Poet of the Year Award, the China Publishing Group Prize, China’s Most Influential Poets in the Century, and the Top Ten Contemporary Poets Prize.


林雪，女，1988 年参加诗刊社第八届青春诗会。2006 年获《诗刊》新世纪全国十佳青年女诗人奖。诗集《大地葵花》获第四届鲁迅文学奖。出版诗集《淡蓝色的星》《蓝色钟情》《在诗歌那边》《林雪的诗》等数种，随笔集《深水下的火焰》、诗歌鉴赏集《我还是喜欢爱情》等。作品获《星星》年度诗人奖、中国出版集团奖、中国百年最具影响力诗人、当代诗人十佳奖等。